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Daily Prompt: Erasure

Daily Prompt: Erasure

by michelle w. on March 12, 2013

You have the choice to erase one incident from your past, as though it never happened. What would you erase and why?
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If I had the opportunity to erase one incident from my past, as though it never happened, what would I erase and why? This is actually a question that I’ve given a great deal of thought to. In fact, I’ve even ministered to female inmates about this very subject, and the truth is that if I could erase one incident from my past, I would pass on that opportunity. 

If I could erase one instance of pain, abuse, rejection, abandonment or fear, I would refuse to do so, because every terrible, horrible incident in my life was ordained by God, to help mold me into the woman that I am today. 

2 Dear brothers and sisters, whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy. 3 For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. 4 So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything.

~ James 1:2-4 NLT ~

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If I could go back to that day so many years ago, when as a scared little girl, I experienced the unthinkable, as my stepfather molested me, leaving behind a traumatized little girl with some very serious issues that would take more than two decades to resolve, I wouldn’t change a thing. For you see, that frightened little girl learned to cry out to God, seeking safety in Him, because there was safety in Him alone. Certainly, my earthly parents didn’t protect me.

If I could go back and pinpoint the time when I first felt unloved and unlovable, I would not erase that time, because when the Lord revealed to me the height and the depth, the width and the length of His love for me, I appreciated it so much more.

 38 And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from His love. Death can’t, and life can’t. The angels can’t, and the demons can’t. Our fears for today, our worries about tomorrow, and even the powers of hell can’t keep God’s love away. 39 Whether we are high above the sky or in the deepest ocean, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

~ Romans 8:38-39 NLT ~

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Shall I give you an illustration of how God revealed His great love for me? My whole life, I felt unloved and unlovable, and I remember from the time I was a little child, having a deep longing to be loved. I used to hug my mother tightly and tell her I loved her, and though she said she loved me too, I couldn’t believe it, because I felt unlovable… Then, many years later, I remember riding in my car with my daughter, who was expecting her first child, a little girl, and we were talking about baby names and their meanings. Suddenly, as we rode along, I said to her, “Do you know what my name means?” When she said no, I told my daughter, “My name means, ‘Beloved.'” 

Suddenly, the Lord began to speak to me, and I began to weep. “That’s right Cheryl,” He said. “Your name means ‘Beloved,’ because you are My beloved. It was I, who named you in your mother’s womb, and your whole life you longed to be loved, not knowing that I loved you all along. I loved you before you were born, and I loved you after. I loved you when you were rejected, and I never forsook you. I loved you when you were molested, and when you thought you were unlovable. You have always been My Beloved, and you always will be My Beloved.”

If I could go back and erase any instant or any day, I would erase none, because every step I’ve taken has led me here. I am now in a place where I know I am loved, and because of the pain, the abuse, the rejection and abandonment that I’ve suffered, I am not only loved, but I am able to love freely. Because I’ve been forgiven much by God, I am also able to forgive much. Because I know what it is like to be miserable and depressed, apart from Christ, I appreciate the joy that I’ve found in Him all the more.

Therefore, although I appreciate your kind offer of erasure, I must decline.

© 2013
Cheryl A. Showers

Daily Prompt: Kick It

What’s the 11th item on your bucket list?
Daily Prompt: Kick It

Well, in order to participate in this prompt, I guess I’ll have to come up with a bucket list. Am I the only one who has never made a bucket list? I wonder if I’m the only one who wasn’t 100% sure exactly what a bucket list is. Praise God for Google! You can find the answers to just about anything there. Anyway, what follows is my bucket list, not necessarily in order of preference… I’ll elaborate on #11, when I get to that one… I guess I’ll attempt 15 bucket items:

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    Go to Israel

  2. Go to Australia
  3. Go to Alaska and see the Northern Lights
  4. Go to Niagara Falls
  5. Write a Best Seller
  6. Dance for the Lord again
  7. See Mary Poppins on Broadway
  8. Go to Disney World with all of my grandchildren
  9. Visit every state in the U.S.
  10. Go to a rodeo
  11. Heal people with my shadow when I walk by.
  12. Write a movie script
  13. Raise the dead
  14. Preach my own funeral (I have to do it before I die and record it, because afterwards, it will be too late)
  15. Open a halfway house to minister to female inmates and prepare them for life when they get out of prison

In Acts 5:15, we learn that people brought their sick out into the streets so that Peter’s shadow would fall on them and heal them. Peter was so filled with God’s Holy Spirit, that just his shadow healed people. I really believe that God is the same yesterday, today and forever, so what He did in biblical times, He can do now in modern times, and the scriptures say that He’s no respecter of persons, meaning that He doesn’t pick favorites. Therefore, He loves me just as much as He loved Peter, and what He did through Peter, He can do through me, if I will just believe. So that is number 11 on my bucket list… to heal people with my shadow in Jesus’ name. 🙂

Actually, it’s #1, but since I’ve never had a bucket list before now, as I was writing the things I want to do before I die, I saved that one for #11 so that I could talk about it… 😀

Lord, give me the faith to believe that You will work miracles, signs and wonders through me. Father, let me heal the brokenhearted and the sick, in Jesus’ name… amen.

Prayer Requests – Calling All Prayer Warriors!

Greetings to My Beloved Brothers and Sisters in the Lord!

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I wrote to you a couple of weeks ago, asking you to pray for the women I minister to, who are in jail, and today I went to minister to them again. I told them that I had posted their prayer requests on my blog, and that men and women throughout this country and around the world were praying for them by name, not because of my popularity, but because the Lord loves them, and had moved on your hearts to do so. Many of them began to weep as I told them this, and they once again passed a sheet of paper around the room so that all could receive prayers on their behalf from you.

So, I come to you again, dear brothers and sisters, on behalf of the female inmates that I minister to, asking that you minister to them also, in prayer. Below is the list of their names and their prayer requests. I don’t ask that you necessarily pray for their requests, but that you pray God‘s will for their lives, knowing that sometimes, it is not His will for them to be released, no matter how much they might want it, because He knows best what they need. I also ask you to keep me lifted in prayer so that I can minister to them according to His will, not mine or theirs.

  • Alfreda – “I have a court date Dec. 10th – pray that I go home and also pray for Quincy, Danielle, Davena & Marcus that they look to God”
  • Carolyn  Prayer
  • Heather – “Prayer”
  • Jena “Adn Yonna, Christian, prayer for me & my children”
  • Kelly – “Guidance for my husband in taking care of our daughter while I’m not there, my sons – strength for them to get through this time without me”
  • Bette – “Please pray for my family”
  • Tammy – “Pray for my steady path upon my release this week.”
  • Lakisha – “Pray for my family and friends. Also that I will be ok in the world and make it through alright! God bless!”
  • Shawnoer – “Prayer for my kids”
  • Qualesha – “Pray for my family, friends & myself to get outta here & do right & stay blessed & my son”
  • Grace – “Pray for my 6 children and my big brother, lil brother and kids father and please pray for me a parole appeal or hearing”
  • Susan – “For God’s will…”
  • Wendy – “Sarah, Jacob, Josh”
  • Mary – Please pray that I can walk out of here Dec. 4th and, that you can please save my children. And that I pass my G.E.D. tests, and that when I leave that God will provide my kids and I with a good home.”
  • Allison – “Please answer my prayers for my son, Jeremy, this Christmas & God blessing my loved ones. Keep me free from addiction!”
  • Kimberly – “Break me free from the power of addiction. Let me love the Lord first and foremost.”
  • Monica “Please pray for me and my three children, Isaiah, Ashley & Robert”
  • Anjoli – “O help me pray move on my soul amen”
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I ask you to keep these women in prayer for the next few weeks, until I post an updated report again. For Anjoli, please especially lift her up, because she does not have all of  her mental faculties, and other inmates can be cruel to her, encouraging her to act out, and she mistakenly thinks they are laughing with her, not understanding that she is the butt of their jokes, and so she tries to please them. Then, when others disapprove of her actions, she acts out because she feels rejected, which leads to a vicious cycle of acting out and her getting in trouble.

Again, to each of you, I truly appreciate the prayers you are lifting up on behalf of these women in prison, and so does the Lord…  Don’t forget about those in prison. Suffer with them as though you were there yourself. Share the sorrow of those being mistreated, as though you feel their pain in your own bodies. (Hebrews 13:3 NLT)

May the Lord bless each one of you for your faithfulness in praying for this list of women!

Love In The Precious Name of Jesus,
Cheryl