I was thinking about the post I did a couple of days ago on forgiving, and the Lord reminded me of a poem that I wrote back in 1997 when I began my journey of forgiveness. I pray that it ministers to those of you who may be finding it hard to forgive…
Just when I thought my life was over,
When I thought the pain would never end,
Just when I thought, “I just can’t bear it!”
You came and whispered to me,
“Come, you who are weary and heavy burdened…
I will give you rest.”
I knew that I wasn’t worthy.
I knew I’d never deserve it.
I’d seen too much, done too much and suffered too much
To ever receive such an offer
Of healing and love and hope from above,
But all that I needed was faith…
“For we walk by faith, not by sight…”
I live by faith in my Lord, Jesus Christ.
“I’m unclean, no good, different!” I cried,
As my shame and my fear held me hopelessly bound.
“Don’t be afraid,” You spoke,
“You won’t suffer shame.
Don’t fear disgrace, humiliation is not for you.
I’ll make you forget the shame of your youth,”
You promised, and I knew it was true.
I’ve struggled for years with the rage in my heart,
Till You spoke, “Cease from anger…
“Lord, I don’t think that I can.”
“Trust Me, do good…
I will establish your steps…
When you fall, I’m the One who is holding your hand.”
“Lord, the pain if I face it
Could drive me insane,
And the tears, once they’ve started
May never stop.”
“Be still, your tears in My bottle I’ve kept.
A diary I’ve written keeps track of those tears.”
“And if my father and mother forsake me?”
“I’ll take you up.”
“Heal Me, Lord Jesus”
“Forgive them,” You said.
“But they nearly destroyed me!
They used me, abused me!
They blamed me and shamed me!
I can’t forgive them, Lord don’t even ask it!
You know I’m not able, Lord, I just can’t!”
“I’ll help you, My child, and you will be blessed,
For the mercy you give will be paid back in full.”
“Lord, please give me peace,
Let me know that You’re near!”
“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything pray,
Give thanks, make your requests known to God.
And His peace which surpasses all comprehension,
Shall guard your heart and your mind through Me,
Christ Jesus, your Lord.”
Cheryl A. Showers